Thursday, June 21, 2012

Finding Nickie (Coming Soon)

****Sneak Preview****

Chapter 1
       It was only supposed to be a one night stand. I think to myself as I reach across the cold mahogany desk for the thick stack of forms.   I watch the social workers lips as she speaks.  She sounds as if she’s talking under water. “Ms. Peterson,” She says. “Are you sure this is what you want?”   I wish she would stop asking me that question.  It’s all I’ve thought about for the last nine months. “I can’t have a baby,” I say flatly. “And you Mr. Goldman, are you sure you want to relinquish all of your parental rights? You have other options,” Katherine says looking back and forth from me to Riley.  He’s sitting next to me gaping at the woman with his mouth open.  He looks over at my swollen belly.  It’s so big that I have to lean forward to reach the table.  He swallows hard. “Yes I’m sure,” He says avoiding Katherine’s gaze.  
     The day I told Riley I was pregnant was the day I decided not to keep the baby.  I never wanted kids but I knew that if I ever changed my mind it would be because I was with a man that I truly loved.  I don’t love Riley.  In fact looking over at his nervous face I wonder why I ever slept with him in the first place. It wasn’t hard to convince him to give the baby up. This child would be a constant reminder of my short comings, of both of our short comings. We know that a baby would only bond us together and neither of us wants that.  
     I sign the final documents and slide them over to Riley.  He hesitates. “What will happen once the baby is born,” He says his pin hovering over the forms. “A social worker will come to the hospital room and meet with you.  She will then take the child to a foster home until we find a family to adopt him or her.  I have to tell you that there are a lot of African American children in foster care.  It could be very difficult to find a home for your child.”  Riley looks over at me and I can see the guilt in his eyes.  He signs the paper, pushes away from the table and leaves the room.  “Thank you,” I say standing as quickly as I can and following Riley out the door.  I wobble out of the room and step into the brisk San Francisco air.  Riley is half way down the block when I spot him.  I call out his name and he spins around fast.  His green eyes are piercing through me. 
     “Come on Riley don’t be that guy,” I say when I approach him.  I’ve told you from the beginning that I was going to give the baby up for adoption.”  He shoves his hands in his pocket and shuffles his feet from side to side. “How can you be so nonchalant?” He says.  “Can’t someone in your family take the baby?”  I’m sure the agency will find someone to adopt her,” I say.  I came to the bay area to get away from my family.  Everyday someone was asking me what I planned to do once the baby is born.  I don’t want them to have to bear the burden of my mistake.  “She will be fine.  If you’re so worried about her than why don’t you or your family take her?” He looks at me solemnly.  “It’s a girl,” He says.  His eyes mist a little.  He turns his back to me.  “You should have had an abortion,” He says as he ambles away.  I stand on the sidewalk watching him until he’s out of sight.  I didn’t have an abortion because this baby didn’t ask me screw Riley in the men’s room at a Vegas night club.  It was my fault I got pregnant not hers.  She should at least be given a chance to live.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Not the end

I just want you all to know that Nickie's story will pick up where Leila's left off.  I know that a few of the readers are disappointed with the way the book ended but it had to end somewhere.  Nickie's story will answer all of your questions I promise!  Thanks again for reading 'A Love Like This.' Please check the blog for the release date of  'Finding Nickie.'

Friday, June 15, 2012

Part 4

Part 4 is available.  Please let me know if you've been following the story and you have missing chapters.  I would be happy to post previous chapters.  The next book will pick up where 'A love Like this' left off.  The next book will be about Nickie.  I'm leaning towards 'Finding Nickie' for the title.  I will post the entire book when it's complete.  Posting the chapters was not the best idea.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

The End of the Story Finally! Part 4 Free

I will post the entire completed book this week once I'm done editing.  I don't know if I would have finished the story if it hadn't been for all of your encouragement.  I will continue to make the chapters free until the completed book is posted.   I will also make part four free for all of you who have been following. Once the entire book is posted I will delete most of the individual chapters.

It's taken longer than I anticipated (you know life responsibilities; husband, kids, family etc. all take precedence) but I want to thank all of you for motivating me to keep going.

Just a side note.  The next story will be about Nickie and her life and I will not be posting chapters.  It was an ill conceived idea.  All the best!  Kim